Heaven or Hell

There is no geographical places like heaven or hell. It's childish to think that when you die God will send you to either heaven or hell according to what you've done through your life. NO! You carry your hell or heaven with you.

If you suddenly meet God, he'll look like hell. You carry your hell with you, you project it wherever you are. So remember if you suffer, you have chosen it: be it consciously, unconsciously, directly, indirectly, you have chosen it. It is your choice & you are responsible- no one else is.

Paradoxical life- dont chose!

Suffering is part of life. But you can become aware; then suffering happens around you, but dont happens to you. But then happiness also dont happen to you. Both will not happen to you. They will happen around, just on the periphery & you will be centre in yourself. You will see them happening, they will happen around you , they will not happen to you.

This only happens if you dont choose. That's why it's delicate, subtle. Because of the paradoxical life, you choose happiness & you fall in suffering. The more you try to escape, the more it's being invited.. It's almost like the ultimate law, whatever you choose the opposite will be your fate.

So dont choose at all. Then nothing can happen to you, everything is a flux except you. this has to be understood very deeply.

What bliss is?

So if you don't choose, if you remain alert & aware that this is how life is, days & nights will pass.Happiness, sadness, suffering happiness you just take it. There is no clinging to happiness & no escaping from suffering. You remain in yourself- centred, rooted. This is what bliss is.

So bliss is not opposite from suffering. Suffering is part of life. It  cease only when you completely disappear from the body. When there is no birth, suffering ceases. When you are lost in the totality, then you are no more- a drop just fallen into the ocean & is no more.

Suffering gives you depth

A person who has not suffer will always remain on the surface. Suffering gives you depth. . Really if there's no suffering you'll be nothing just a boring phenomenon. Suffering give you tone, a keenness. A quality comes to you only suffering can give, which no happiness can.

You need both. The more you move in opposites, the higher & deeper you evolve. Life exist between both a a very delicate tension, A subtle tension

A person who has not suffered has no tone, no depth, no heart. The heart is created through suffering; through pain we evolve. Similarly for one who only suffers, there's nothing, he only exist, there's no song in the heart , no poetry, no hope. He will settle down to his pessimistic existence. There will be no struggle, no adventure. He will be stagnant- a stagnant pool of consciousness- by & by he'll become unconscious. That's why when there's too much pain you fall unconscious.

Choiceless vs happy/suffering

It seems man always choose to be happy & never suffering. But there's the paradox: if you choose to be happy, you will be suffering because to be happy means to be choice less. If you don't choose if you simply remain a witness, you will be happy. So it is not a question of choosing to be happy or not: deep down it is a question of choosing between choosing & non-choosing.

But why do you suffer when you started choosing?
It's because choice divides life. It means you don't accept the whole. It means you only accept something but deny something. That which you deny will come to you, because life cannot be denied. And because you deny it, it has a power over you as you really become afraid of it.

Nothing can be denied. You can only escape. You can shut it out, but it's always there, waiting for the moment to assert.

No one choose to suffer. You have chosen not to suffer. You are doing everything to be happy & that's why you are in suffering, why you are not happy. Remember life is total, you cannot choose- it has to be lived. There will be moments of happiness & sadness.

When you are choice less, you becomes aware of yourself. now you are not worried about what happens- whatever it is, you'll live it, you'll go through it, experience it. You will gain something from it as every experience is an expansion of consciousness.

Concentrate on point on the wall.

The nature of mind is movement, it's a process. If you stop, mind becomes dead, only consciousness remains. Consciousness is your nature; mind is your activity, like walking. Consciousness is like legs- your nature. Mind is like walking- just a process.

Concentrate on a point- until it 'dissolves'- actually it's the mind that dissolves not the point. In concentration, the mind do not move, without movement it 'stops'. Once it stops, you are not related to anything outside- suddenly all bridges are broken because the mind is the bridge.

When you are concentrating on the point, mind is jumping from you to the wall & vice verse- that is a process. When the mind dissolves you cannot see the point cos really you never see the point thru the eyes- you see it thru the mind & thru the eyes.  If the mind is not there the eyes cant function. If the mind is not there, the bridge is broken. The pt is real. When the mind comes back, you will see it again. But now you cannot see it, & when you cant see it suddenly you are at your centre!

Moving meditation- Catharsis

Everything is tightly regulated in today’s society. There’s only a perceived freedom not true freedom. It’s like a prison but the walls are very subtle, they are glass, transparent. We cannot see them, but they are everywhere. Our  morality, culture, religion they are all walls. When ever we want to cross back, we are throw back by these transparent walls. As such all our emotions are repressed ; anger, sadness even happiness is repressed. 

That's why Catharsis moving meditation is impt. A catharsis can relieve yourself, act out whatever the society, or situations has forced on you.. You will flow in it, you will become unafraid of expression. Once you can remove all that has been repressed in you, by expressing yourself through catharsis movements, you will become natural again, like a child. Pure, innocent, only then can your energies be transformed. Perverted energies cannot be transformed. Natural spontaneous energy is needed. That's why it's impt to act things out, so that society can be removed.

This is unlike being anti-social. Once you are aware of your pure freedom inside, you can live with society; there's no need to oppose it. The society does not affect your mind anymore. You can move in it, act in it, only - you are acting knowingly!

Those who become antisocial simply show that they are still bound to the same society. Only acting & reacting to the same society in a reverse manner,  just a reaction, a part & product of the same society- only moving against it in bitterness. It's like standing on their heads that's all! It's useless.

Unlike a sage, who's not anti society, he is beyond society. He's not against establishment neither is he for it. He knows it is just a play; he moves in it like an actor. And if you can move in the society like an actor on stage, it never touches you; you remain beyond it.

Once you can leave the society alone without any bitterness, without going against it or being in any reaction.... if you can simply remove society out of you, the divine can enter into you. Because the divine means existence.

Society is a human phenomenon. Existence is infinite. It is not concern with man, morals, traditions, it is concern with the very roots of being. One has to be beyond society, not against it, remember. This, moving catharsis method can help! 

Acceptance

If you accept the whole existence is with you. If you are really vulnerable nothing is negative for you.- because negative is your interpretation. You feel something is negative because you resist it, you do not accept it. This has to be deeply understood.

If you are vulnerable it means you are ready to live in insecurity. Deep down it means you are ready even to die. You will not resist. If death comes, you will simply allow it to happen. You accept existence in its totality

Why meditate?

Why not....lol....